Exiting Earth

I was back in the hospital room, waiting with the rest of the family. Melissa’s husband, Terry, had come to be supportive and they had run out for dinner and come back. I imagined that Melissa was loathe to leave because she was being told that it would be any...

Adult Shoes

I saw my phone light up without a ring while I sat waiting at the bus stop after my therapy appointment.  Those sessions always drained me and I didn’t really want to answer the phone. But looking at the caller-id  I didn’t have anything else I was doing and I’d...

Falling Fast

As summer moved on, it was easy to forget that a year had passed since I had stepped through my own personal gauntlet. A year ago, I had traveled across the country from Seattle to Georgia in five days by myself with two dachshunds to be there when Susan passed....

Standing Soft

“I have a crush on you,” I felt the words eject themselves from my mouth in a hurried torrent of sound; rushing to be heard and yet fly away as quickly as possible. As soon as I heard my voice in the air, I wanted to call the words back...

A Little More Certainty

I wake up to sounds. Some days it was hearing the trickle of a creek next to my window or the rushing roar of a hot air balloon. Other days it was the quiet stillness of a midwest prairie with the hiss of the wind rustling the grass, or the...

The Ache of the Missing Present

The Ache of the Missing Present
The ache of the missing present. I feel like sometimes that’s what grief is. The realization of what you imagined to be never taking shape. I think that’s why some of the happiest people are the ones that only see the present for what it is and take inventory without...

A Little More Certainty

A Little More Certainty
I wake up to sounds. Some days it was hearing the trickle of a creek next to my window or the rushing roar of a hot air balloon. Other days it was the quiet stillness of a midwest prairie with the hiss of the wind rustling the grass, or the...

Let It Snow

Let It Snow
It was a moment of disbelief when I didn’t even have the time to be stunned. Two days prior I had been in the 100 degree heat of Moab, UT sweating just to stand still. If my future self had told my past self that two days later I would...

The Work of Living

The Work of Living
It was an unexpected and wonderful open mic night in Portland. Brendan and I were in town finishing up some gigs he had secured in the local area when we decided that we wanted to experience more music before we left for Eastern Oregon the next day. After a false...

Everyday Home

Everyday Home
I keep finding reminders of the life I’ve left behind. As my time living in Seattle draws to a close I keep finding things to stumble upon. My house is on the market at an asking price that will put me at break even after the nearly $20,000 in agent...

What I Want

What I Want
“It’s just the sheen,” she said as we looked at our options in the sand ahead of us.  I thought it had looked a little wet from the rain, and possibly the tide. I wasn’t sure if we should continue our advance upon the sand. The day was one that...
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