Falling Fast

As summer moved on, it was easy to forget that a year had passed since I had stepped through my own personal gauntlet. A year ago, I had traveled across the country from Seattle to Georgia in five days by myself with two dachshunds to be there when Susan passed....

For the Birds

He stood there amongst his friends quietly. He looked a little darker and stared at us with a patience that spoke of a soul looking from the other side a different doorway than the one that we entered this world. From his black feet to his orange beak, he wasn’t...

Deck of Observation

I found myself standing on the 86th floor of the Empire State building and it became clear that I had overpaid for my elevator ride to the top. I braced myself against the wind and cycled my way around the observation deck weaving through the other people that had decided to...

Pass It On

I set fire to the first copy of my book yesterday. I stood by the fire pit in the beginning of a first-time ritual. The proof copy was in my hands with its formatting errors and grammar mistakes. It was the very same book that I pulled out of the...

The Wider Net

“I like online dating because it can at least give you an indication that someone is interested,” I told my friend. “Interested, sure,” he replied, “but interesting….?” He let the sentence trail off into a question and I had to laugh. It was a good point. The truth is I...

The Ache of the Missing Present

The Ache of the Missing Present
The ache of the missing present. I feel like sometimes that’s what grief is. The realization of what you imagined to be never taking shape. I think that’s why some of the happiest people are the ones that only see the present for what it is and take inventory without...

A Little More Certainty

A Little More Certainty
I wake up to sounds. Some days it was hearing the trickle of a creek next to my window or the rushing roar of a hot air balloon. Other days it was the quiet stillness of a midwest prairie with the hiss of the wind rustling the grass, or the...

Let It Snow

Let It Snow
It was a moment of disbelief when I didn’t even have the time to be stunned. Two days prior I had been in the 100 degree heat of Moab, UT sweating just to stand still. If my future self had told my past self that two days later I would...

The Work of Living

The Work of Living
It was an unexpected and wonderful open mic night in Portland. Brendan and I were in town finishing up some gigs he had secured in the local area when we decided that we wanted to experience more music before we left for Eastern Oregon the next day. After a false...

Everyday Home

Everyday Home
I keep finding reminders of the life I’ve left behind. As my time living in Seattle draws to a close I keep finding things to stumble upon. My house is on the market at an asking price that will put me at break even after the nearly $20,000 in agent...

What I Want

What I Want
“It’s just the sheen,” she said as we looked at our options in the sand ahead of us.  I thought it had looked a little wet from the rain, and possibly the tide. I wasn’t sure if we should continue our advance upon the sand. The day was one that...
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